Saturday, November 9
boo.
i smell freedom
=)
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boos.
=)
had lishi meetin today.
yes...that kinda whole day thing? hahas..
went to bed only at 1am las nite
+ only woke up at 10am can?
which wuz actually the time we were supposed to meet.
apparently, i told my maid + sis
in midst of my sleep that i didn't need to go school?
*bahs* anw meeting wuz great. done with some stuffs.
really lookin forward to camp! =)
am in a dilemma now.
dunno whtr to go be a zhujiao and leave rj + xm w wadeva camp plan prob that might pop out or
stay w rj + xm and together, we'll deal with whatever sudden probs for tt wk b4 camp and dun be zhujiao.
wan to be and yet i wan to stay and help out with camp.
maybe i'll jus go down and see whats it about? yah.
and heys!!!! we'll gonna have BBQ! and lishis are oic for this thingy. hope the tchrs approve.
it'll be great fun but sure gonna be tiring for the 9 of us. *grins*
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Friday, November 8
finally cld blog. *heaves*
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and we say human tech is bringin everyone else closer.
its a freaky thought, actually...
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dunno whats wrong w me now.the dreaded chinese Os is over and somehow.i am here.with the usual pose at the comp.crying. ridiculous.dunno. just realised that the year has gone. not exactly the whole academic year cause basically the sec 4s are still gonna carry on with their Os and we are gonna go back to school for our lessons. got home at 7pm today.and felt rather empty.and yes.dismayed too.about the things we talked about and whatever thoughts that came into my mind on that short journey home. life seems so empty for me. life just seems to be there to make me feel that i have to study really hard, cause somehow i lost my intelligence of efficient studying, and then treasure the times that i actually could really slack [like now]. sheesh. so many things have happened. so many stuffs passed. i guess the red batch got to grow, mature ...well basically i meant me. and those friends who held me strong and firm.
today was really a day that made me feel really nostalgic. and sensed a lot of deja vu. this very school morning, which had me doing some last min mugging at 5, made me feel really nostalgic. when i looked thru the window to find jy + ade already seated at macs [they were the only person there by the way] and a bunch of sec 4s crossing the road, those memories just came back. as though it was another morning, when it was back in 2000/2001 where the 3 of us [i think. yes we were house enthusiasts] would meet at macs before "dutifully" going for backups [yes, for sports day]. it was just the alighting from my daddy's car when i got a "good luck" handshake then i snapped back into reality. we submerged into talking about possible zuowen questions.
when i stepped into school, after coming from macs, it just made me feel like i was a sec 1 girl, walking into the school on my very 1st day in st nicks,even though i was walking with chew [who commented on my silliness] whom i didn't get to know till this year. the cold morning breeze. the resounding voices of the school [tho subjected to sec 3s+4s] just brot back the memories of those days where i used to alight at the st 13 gate and stroll to my classroom , s1g, those days of naiveness, dreams.
and later, with the formal setting of exam hall and a stranger-invigilator brought back the days where me and my closer fwens [still is :) ] sat for our PSLE. that weird feeling. that really serene scenario. just totally the same except for the setting and ppl around\. mrs cheong tokked to us at the end of the long day. she tried to sound like mrs hwang, caring and all. but maybe because we just know her for her two-faceness ...it just kept the same low level of viceprincipalship respect [not that ms choo has > ] i had for her. me + mich managed to talk a lil on the good old days and her anecdote on mrs hwang brought me back those days when the TRUE principal was mrs hwang. whatever happened then didn't really matter. the grades i got, despite major improvements, had mattered nothing to the inferiority complexity i got when i spoke to huish + mich.
i recall when i was in sec 1. the very first time i felt so helpless for my maths exam paper that time. i cried. i cried in class. really badly. and jia cried along with me.at that time. maths had always been my ace subject in pri sch. and that experience was really bad. well ...ppl grow. and i have since accepted failures. but is this acceptance making it way too lenient for me to actually strive for improvement? god knows.
the trip home was left me dismayed. empty. it just made me realise that no, i was no longer the girl who could be mad on a mental note , i am really serious when i mean business. my fun-loving character doesnt make me THAT sluggish all day long. i am 15 going on 16. moving on to a life which would be full of tests, hopefully less hectic than this yr, and supposingly adaptable accord. to eunice. well. and the fact that i was walking and having this conversation with people whom i got to know this yr.. i felt strange. not exactly that. but something..which i cun find any word to put it. they are not exactly who i go to when i am in shambles. not exactly ppl i think i can rely on. they mentioned that nxt yr wld just be a year of CCA stuffs + studies, CCA naturally because we happened to be all comm mem, and studies, yes that darn thing...becoz we gonna sit for Os? the strange feeling...maybe its just my lack of faith for trust, and the thing in me that made me feel not right.
Or it was just the way the cold hard reality is to be for us just smacked me. right straight into my face. i had wanted a fruitful, full of experiences, fun las yr in st nicks, but looking at my budding classmates. perharps i can just whisk this thoughts away. it would certainly be a perilous year that determines what we are going to be in adulthood. but must we really succumb to such conditions? i duno. just emptiness
maybe its just me who doesn't want to move on. get ahead and admit that sec 3 is over and that the year that we would play as the eldest in the school have soon come. and holidays till dec nxt yr would not be of its true siginificance...
sad.but what can i do? its
yes, cold, hard, it is...
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nxt yr++
i seriously dunno what to do.++
as in.++
me + my fwens were walking outta school..++
and then we wer toking abt nxt yr++
and they wer like...++
next yr's gonna be PUREly CCA + studies stuff++
no HSE no SCH stuff++
and i was rather dismayed>..++
i mean yah... they r somehow whoever i normally hang out with in class++
lyk for me its..++
my las yr.++
shun i be > enthu?++
and..++
yah.++
and. actually qt worried for some other ppl out ther++
like ... i duno.++
its more of...some cares way too much for eir studies++
heck about other > fun stuff to live a nice stdn life++
and some...just doesn't really care about eir studies++
well. do enjoy stdn life. but not exactly in pure euphoricness++
seems like for me some dreams may just be smashed completely++
++completely++
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Wednesday, November 6
&&& yellings!!! &&&
aRrX
and jm helped me change my gbk layout. go see!
but sadly. i cun view it myself.
so its more of looking from the
but den again..guess it doesn't matter.
*shrugs*
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shrugs
arrx.
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Tuesday, November 5
typical mugging day.
shuttin out from the wurld.
checked phone at noon.
did some faxing.
hope jm got it.
sighs.
cl is so so boring!
and its not over.
2 days more.
includ9 today that is.
oh wells.
still tinking of what to do for that 4 hrs break.
whatever.
think its better to worry abt how i am gonna pass
or get my distinction
boring!!! cun wait for Sunday *grins*
okies. whatever. shooing off.
no netting for mee..
darn.am really moving real slowly.
not gonna be so detailed about s1 + s2 ci
sighs.
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went to jy's hse today.
no. not sleepover or slumb party.
wuz a mugging session
basically had lunch, dinner over there.
*guilty* her mum's a really good host.
not jy. hees. but...she's fine lar
*tink i am better..* [recalls the time ey came for a slpover]
helped her finish part of her new assement bk *beams*
and...qt shocked + amuzed that i managed to sit down there
her wunderful study table that overlooks the greenery..
the sky...the urbanization *sighs*
first we had some artificial coolent to chill our prominently-bursting brain
den was some really nice cooling breeze thru the window.
gosh. its so nice lorx. like jessica's house..
can just sit there [at the balc] and look at stars?
staying up to "study" wld reallly be great.
like u can just look up and look at the constellations.
wonderful stars that twinkle
and submerge u into fantasy world of diamonds..whatnots.
snapping back into reality
basically got most of the questions rite..
and got s1,s2 and half of s3 left.
was just really slow in mugging.
but am glad. i know my upper sec cl well.
so dun need to go back + revise *beams*
maybe i'll just skim thru the lower sec cl.
and..sheesh. dun have the s1 bk.
my sister lost her ci yu shou ce can?
*shrugs*. shall see how.
hmmx. whats stomach flu like arrx?
if it includes having weird excess secretion of gastric juices
that threatens to well up over the oesophagus.
maybe i got it.
*sighs* thought that discomfort was some sign of hunger...
but yah. am full from jy's mum's home-cooked dinner..
*burp* excuse me.
and still my stomach's still feels weird.
dun like the feeling. back's aching. stomach's ?secreting?
oh nvm. ok. time to go study liaox.
wonder how she's doing..tt smartgirl
..choose wisely. gonna be stuck with that option for 2 yrs
[ + maybe JC u noe]
sec 3s +4s::
lucks to all ...well to our A1s we go [cl i mean =) ]
+++this is what i'm gonna do+++
finish sec 3 cl
read thru sec 2 cl.
do one zuowen
read thru the model essays
hopefully...will be mission accomplished
ok. adios.
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Sunday, November 3
wow. haven been online since friday
i call that long. 3 days eh..
been studying but somehow cun get everything in.
sighs.
friday wuz a great day.
the drama fest...the sec 3's spirit...the zest...acheivements...everything =)
sat + sun was all to me myself and i..
was home alone...and cun even go online..
dare i say ...BORING...
chinese isn't that interesting..
but well hope i'll just do well in it..
okies.
better go soon..
gonna meet chew + mich later....
to do wAd? ---> u got it. [[study!]]
hiackx
feel so nerdy. hhaha. but i hope some stuffs will get in ...
till the Os
and that CL 'O's? = f.i.v.e.
gcse? o.n.e.
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